Waiting.

Today, I had my chest MRI performed as well as the right axilla ultrasound. Tomorrow, I will have the PET scan completed. In this moment, I ask that you all *PAUSE* what you are doing and pray that God’s will be done. In this moment, I have proclaimed that this is God’s way of recreating a NEW me. A new me that lives solely for him. A new me that brightens the room with my genuine faith. A new me that is on FIRE for the Lord.

October 2: I will have a biopsy performed on a (slightly) enlarged lymph node in my right axilla. In the medical world, if I was still a “normal” patient, not one that is fighting off the awful C word, I would go back in for re-evaluation in 3 to 6 months. However, we are being as “paranoid” as possible and will have the biopsy performed, so my oncology team will have all of the information needed to great the WAR plan on this invader.

October 7: Visit with Dr. Miller to discuss all results and determine which plan of action is best.

I ask that you all pray for me. Specifically for guidance. I am seeking the Lord’s guidance for determining if a second opinion is necessary. All of my doctor’s encourage a second opinion. I, in fact, have the opportunity to be evaluated by Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville–currently awaiting a call to discuss my case.

I, honestly, can feel all of the prayers. Keep them coming. Never cease. They most definitely help me through each day and I am forever grateful.

I am still battling many emotions–sadness, anger, disbelief, devastation, and slowly entering to acceptance. I am struggling with the acceptance phase. I constantly ask myself, “Why?” My medical brain comes into play and reminds me that this shouldn’t be. This is one in a million. But, I then remember that God has a plan. I don’t believe he is the cause of this. I know he is the author of my story and I could never write my own story, as great as He can. He will carry me through. I must keep my faith. I must find my comfort in Him. While the world seems to be spinning so quickly, I find comfort in the “slow” life. I find comfort now just sitting amongst family and enjoying the moment. I am no longer so caught up in “GO-GO-GO” instead I am enjoying the little things that I once took for granted.

Continue praying for me. Our Lord, the Lord who saves and also HEALS. Pray that my PET scan results are reassuring and my chemo can quickly begin.

Until next time,

Anna Vaggalis

xoxo